It's crunch time.

It is now crunch time. We're leaving in 5 days! This week, in the mornings we do our devotionals and then Bruce and Paulette Buskirk are teaching us. Were going through our Freedom 2 manual. The last 3 days tie together and this is what we've talked about. Teachability, Deconstructing Defensiveness and Deconstructing Rebellion. Pretty much were learning how to posture your heart to make it receptive to being teachable. Man, is it hard to hear what defences you put up in your life and how you fight for control. It's frightening when you look at what's in your heart. Thank the Lord he is so gracious and forgiving. Teachability is basically being able to receive what God or others are telling you without instantly inwardly rejecting what they say. Check out Proverbs 15. Now it is so easy to see how other people are not teachable but you need to look at yourself. It sucks! I realize what I need to sort out to make my heart more teachable. There are 5 general forms of control: Self-Pity; Striving and Performance; Drama and Emotional; Domination; and finally Distrust. No surprise I need to learn how to stop controlling situations by Domination. It was hard being called out on the fact that I think I can do things better than they are being done, that I put on a mask and act like everything is under control or I don't let people close enough to spot my weakness. Of course there were many other things but I'm surprised I'm even this open. ahaha Clearly it has already affected how I think. I have been trying and trying to humble myself everyday. Its hard :) Anyways this is what our mornings have been like. Around lunch time were talking specifics about Cambodia such as schedule and packing lists. In the afternoons we have been organizing an outreach in the community. My group and I are running this thing called SozoFest which is a three on three basketball tournament, dance off, face painting and nail painting. We've been doing it wed, thurs and now friday. It has been going AMAZING. I absolutely love just spending time with all of the people in the community. Even more so than before I have no fear going up and talking to anyone. I got to know a few people today and be able to tell them about the Gospel. Now for the evenings. Tuesday we went to the beach!!! We went to someones place on the beach and went to a boat! I was finally able to tube this summer. We had a bonfire and just an amazing day. I felt completely finally spending a day at the water. Wednesday was prayer night and tonight I am just sitting at home watching The Office with Heather, Justin, Taylor and Rudy. Were just writing out our testimonies for Cambodia. I will update you again soon!